It's been some time since I have written, sorry about that.I'm finding myself dissatisfied with my writing. The world I have written is I find rather dull. Of course I have been reading Tolkien and frankly the man was much more well read than I am in the old myths and wrote the stories most of his life.
The advice I get from authors and also from books is keep writing so if you fell discouraged keep writing. I am. Even if you think your writing is utter excriment keep writing. Look there is only one way your going to get better practice. I'm writing this for my benefit as much as yours. Ok yeah, you've had some set backs, so have I.
Your setting stinks. Improve it. Heck use history. What are some of your favorite places and time periods? Ever thought of mixing them up? Would they fit with the genre your writing?
How about praying and telling God about it? That just came to mind. It's amazing how that is the last thing that comes to me when I'm in trouble.
I need to practice less self reliance. God call you to write? Guess what he won't call us to do anything that we can do on our own. We need to rely on him. And if you know he is calling you to write guess what? It's going to be the very last thing your going to want to do.
That has been my experience. Like the old Hymn " Fightings from without and within."

The enemy doesn't want to see your work suceed especially if its meant to help someone or point them to God. Keep the faith and remember what Philipians says,Phil. 3:13 Brothers,
I do not consider myself to have yet taken hold of it. But this one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead., I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which
God had called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."
And also," Phil.4:8 Finally, Brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right,
whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy- think on such things." (Moreover.) Whatever you have learned or recieved or heard form me, or seen in me- put into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Epiphany

I talked to a friend at church the other day, he said the thought I should write about what I thought heaven would be like. I explained I was really trying to do backdoor evangelism with Sci-fi/Fantasy. He said I ought to do it just for me. You know he had a point. I think This is the beginning of something soon.

Dear Angie and Brad

Dear Angie and Brad,

Heard you broke up again, it made me sad,

Your kids were sick, your house is gone,

Angies mother was thrown out on the lawn.

How sad, how sad the life you had, before the

twenty seven children were taken away.

The IRS found your off shore accounts and now it's

Time to pay, pay, pay.

Well its' time to go a new job have,

I'll see you on College St. or Seventh and Grand.

Where I get my Ideas?

I ask a lot of what ifs. For instance my current work the Champions of Andelusia(Which I'm going to have to change because everybody thinks they come from Spain. Sorry I didn't think people knew their geography that well.) I thought what if there was a world where Christians were superheroes.

Then I thought what if there was a group like the Justice League that were world famous but they failed and the world fell. Then what if they had kids who went back in time to save the day.

Also I talked with people who were into Sci-Fi /Fantasy and I'm sorry to say I just made stuff up right then and there and we were both impressed.

Like a war across time that nearly destroyed this world and remnants of weapons from that time that surface from time to time. And I rob and plagiarize history because it's legal. Plus I think with Fantasy you really need to have a strong foundation with reality if you don't want to lose your audience. But that I suppose is a different topic.

Ever get chewed out? Did the person have a point?Yes. Were they right? Yes.Did the delivery suck? Yes. This will probably take sometime to get over. That being said I am greatful for where I am at. I need to spend more time writing and less time talking on the internet, But having been really pretty lonely and isolated lately I really couldn't help it.
Anyway working on background for story, world building and such. And trying to type up the story digitally so I can edit it easier.

I haven't written in some time.

For that I appologize. Recently I nearly became homeless, which was not entirely my fault. But the important thing is to not get discouraged. My Bible study teacher said something pretty important which was that even if I ended up on the street and had to live at a shelter it's just for a season and I am not destined to stay there. The big thing is to not feel sorry for myself, God hasn't abandoned me or anything.
I leave you with a poem I scribbled while looking at the moon one night:



The moon rose up out of the east,
Here her cradled radience was crowned
By a mantle of stars.



Finito.

Discomfort.

I would say I know discomfort pretty well. I got behind on my rent recently and was asked to move. It wasn't entirely my fault but I really felt God's peace all over it. I sensed he wanted me to learn to live out on my own. Honestly without any family out here it was pretty hard. I really didn't learn anything about living out on my own from my parents by the time they became Christians I was so jaded from a childhood of living with Alcoholics that I was really in no mood to listen to my father's lecture about finances.
For almost a month now I have been looking for places on line in San Francisco and in Marin(Northern county above San Francisco) for a place to live. Unfortunately most people want $1,200 to $2000 to move in I have about $300 dollars. I had a house sitting gig that was a week in San Francisco which bought me some time but the second house sitting gig I was hoping for fell though. So I was out of a place and didn't have a place to go to. Fortunately someone from AA payed for a room for last night and tonight. And someone else from AA said he might have a short term appartment for rent.
God really has opened the doors for me but my patence and my emotional state has been at the snapping point a few times. Not everybody has been paticularly helpful or kind to me during this time. But I was able to not fall back in a state of, " Hey your a jerk your just like my parents, I'm not going to reach out to Christians or people from AA anymore." This guy was the way his was but that was his garbage and had nothing to do with my past. Yes it hurt really badly. I didn't snap back because he was helping me to a degree however I am not eager to go to him again when I am in trouble.
I am trying to lean on God more,it not easy. Especially when you are teetering on the edge of homelessness. I'm pretty overwhelmed and more than a tad dispondant. But drinking isn't an option and God is no less faithful because things look grim. I just try to move forward and trust him with the next thing I need to do.